Walk the line

Edinburgh used to have a Royal Infimary in the city centre, and lots of small specialist hospitals and clinics built decades or even a century or more ago, all usefully accessible to the people who used them.

Then we got an NHS Trust that looked at this spread of healthcare and said OOH PRIME CITY CENTRE BUILDING SITES, and sold all the land off to property developers and used the money to fund a Public-Private Partnership (ie, a big con) to build a giant hospital an hour's bus ride out from the city centre. Miles and miles from anywhere.

So while I love my dad and want to see him, I am getting really increasingly pissed off with the decision that means my evenings are occupied from 5:30-9:00 by travelling out to the Royal Infirmary, having visiting time with my dad, and travelling back again. There is nowhere to buy a cup of tea or coffee - the only cafe closes (I assume) at 6pm, since I've never seen it open. There is a sort of mini-mall in the main entrance, but the only shop open when I get there is WHSmiths, which closes at 8pm, which has tail-end sandwiches left by the time I get there.

(My first time, I thought to buy one of the meal bargains - you get a sandwich, a bottle of water/soft drink, a packet of crisps - but they'd run out of water the size that went with the meal bargain, I don't do soft drinks, and the sandwich / crisps were both being sold at the kind of inflated prices you see when a shop has (a) a captive market (b) a hefty ground rent.)

I'm feeling kind of lost and isolated at work right now because my colleagues are all frantic about other things and I'm feeling mostly "OMG DAD!" which of course no one else is. And I can see why they're frantic and would be sharing that franticness except that I don't have room for it past "OMG DAD!"

Off for my long bus ride now...

Big Bang Theory

Sheldon! ♥

( spoilers )

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Castle

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Hopefully today will be less fraught and crazy-making than yesterday was, and I will be able to get some work done on my yuletide story. I am worried I won't live up to the source, but then I think, in some ways, who could? Which will make more sense once I can talk about it.

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LJ, please to be fixing comment notifications ASAP. It is really freaking irritating that I'm still not getting any.

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Lastly, thank you again for all the lovely snowflakes. I wasn't able to get to everyone before they shut it down, but if I could have, I would have. *heart*

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I LOVE THE WHOLE WORLD
BUT THE AO3 CODERS MOST OF ALL
BOOM-DE-YADA, BOOM-DE-YADA...

:-D

In only-minorly-related news, apparently my long-slumbering infatuation with Merlin UK fandom has re-manifested. The trouble with tag-wrangling and thinking about what Freeform tags I might want on my own bookmarks is that I keep finding all kinds of neat new things to read!

Which reminds me... not for official tag-wrangling, but for my own bookmarks... I'm thinking I want to start using nonfandom-specific tags for the following concepts, because when I'm reading in Merlin and Smallville (and other?) fandoms, I find myself seeking these themes out:

Secret Revealed
Secret Revealed To Partner
Secret Revealed To Partner - Unresolved Sexual Tension
Secret Revealed To Partner - Established Relationship
Secret Revealed To Ally (or perhaps To Friend? hmmm.)
Secret Revealed To Nemesis
Secret Revealed Anticlimactic

What do you fine folks use to tag or bookmark such concepts?

ETA: Oh oh oh! I almost forgot! I've stumbled across a couple completely adorable Fred & Ginger fanvids recently! I think I found one of them via veni_vedi_vids and another via... um... hang on, I've got it here in a tab somewhere... aha! stultiloquentia and someone else (sorry, I can't find you!) right around the same time, and the others via google-searching trying to figure out where I'd found the first one, before I remembered!

glvalentine's rec of Love You Madly by roseytrebles

Fanvid: "Happiness" [Astaire/Rogers Films] by icepixie

They Can't Take That Away... by duckmilk productions

Do You Love Me (Now That I Can Dance) by StrictlyTaboo

Support For My Argument by vespersaw

Also Caught by vespersaw, featuring not only Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers, but also William Powell and Myrna Loy, and Olivia de Havilland and Errol Flynn...

*swoon*

(I must interject here that never in a million years did I ever expect to find fanvids including footage of Captain Blood (and Robin Hood OMG) aside from the fantastic One Night Fandoms: A Tribute to Yuletide by eruthros and thingswithwings!)

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Happy Birthday, caorann and early happy birthday to fox1013.

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Thank you, Livia Penn and Anonymous, for my virtual snowflake cookies. They brightened my day.

Also in day brightening: the surgeon cleared me to continue with life as normal, except that I have to eat better or else when I get in a car crash, my fatty liver will BLEED OUT and leave me to die faster than a smaller liver.

While I'm generally skeptical of surgeons giving nutritional advice (hell, I'm skeptical of all medical doctors giving nutritional advice, because most of them don't know anything about nutrition; nutrition is not one of the things they give a shit about in med school), and, as a point of fact, the surgeon didn't give me any advice except to say that the first ten pounds of weight loss come from the liver. (Then the number changed to twenty, and I'm not convinced I have enough room in my substantial abdomen for a twenty pound liver. Also, I am skeptical that weight loss starts in the liver, see, SURGEONS KNOW NOTHING ABOUT NUTRITION and also, most information I've read about dieting intimates that the first several pounds lost to dieting tend to be water weight.)

But as, you have to lose weight scares go, "You'll bleed to death in a car accident if your liver is made of fat cells," is reasonably unique, concrete, and something that the person with whom I am talking might have knowledge. (How much experience a gastric surgeon has with trauma cases, even those impacting the liver, I'm not sure. But he could have read about it in his medical journals.)

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Thank you so much to ingridmatthews, spectralbovine, tygress girlmostlikely, tartanshell, midnitemaraud_r, devildoll, and also to the anonymice for the snowflake cookies! ♥♥♥♥♥ *twirls you all*

[eta] Thanks also to the folks at crack_impala for the snowflake they sent to unfitforsociety. *g* [/eta]

I have been very meh recently and now I feel all warm and loved.

I've fallen behind completely on answering comments, so I am declaring today comment amnesty day, and getting rid of all the unanswered comments (on anything but fic - those I will try to answer) from before today.

I have three sets of minutes to write now, plus yuletide and broken toys. Yay?

Have a poem:

Rhymes and Songs

It's late now, December, a few trees
continue translating.
A menorah
holds up its little buckets of light.
An old woman with hands to her ears,
two homeless men discussing the nature of evil.
It's a clear morning.
Everyone's carrying luggage. There're gaps
between passersby, larger than usual.
The sun sets silver shields
in a row of window frames, all but one,
where a girl in a fur hat looks out.
Dawn riddled with memories
fading and dispersing among the trees,
fever subsiding —
you think, at last I can do what I want,
but mostly
you're building on the silence,
the solemnity of things left to themselves.
White limousine at the corner: an
intricate, depressed millionaire
trolling for a girl so beautiful
& frightened she might be enticed.
And a new life, arduous
and dire, commences. Years
on a backcountry farm near one of the Great Lakes,
a bent for poetry, little rhymes
& songs
to soothe yourself
and children you've come to know.

~Charlie Smith

~*~

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Composing a note to my dad, I realised I was actually not sure how to address it. I have for years avoided it because one simply doesn't write letters these days. E-mails begin with "hi". Cards and presents are formally addressed.

How do I think of him? He's his name, of course: he's Father, which is how I speak to him more often than not: he is "my dad", which is how I reference him to others more often than not: he is "Pops" or "Granpops" to my siblings and to my nephews, respectively, but I've never thought of him as either one, though I can and do switch to their terminology when speaking with them. I addressed the note, in the end, to "Dear Name", on the basis that the nurses would realise more easily who it belonged to if it got cleared off the over-the-bed table at night. He is also half of the collective referent "the parents" which is how me and my brother and sister discuss them as a joint problem. Er, yes.

He was asleep when I arrived (late: bus breakdown) last night, and I sat watching/listening to him sleep, feeling that it would be a mistake to wake him up. He woke about quarter to eight, and concurred. We sat together till about ten past eight, or shortly after the trolley came in with the evening tea, and then I went home, because visiting hours officially end at 8pm and I thought it better to leave before being formally asked to go.

Sleeping did him good, though he is clearly getting better: he suffers pain now (he says) only in the broken bone, not all over. He was out of bed for an hour, and while it exhausted and hurt him, he didn't actually feel he was going to collapse, as on Saturday: and he is off the oxygen which was cleaning out his system after the anaesthetic. He rang my mum Sunday morning to remind her about the newsletters for the Quaker Meeting he had meant to deliver on Thursday, and was about to call her again after I'd left to let her know that the publisher of his book should know he is in hospital and not available to respond to e-mails. (Fortunately, he won't receive the proofs till 13th January - "your birthday", he said with a grin - and they don't have to go back to the publishers till February.) So. But, he is still not well enough to focus - to read/listen to radio. Though I brought him a new set of earphones, the sort that actually fit inside your ears (you don't know until you've tried them how much better the sound quality is) and a travel radio as an early Christmas present.

(Unfortunately, his ward is in a transmitter shadow, so he can't use the radio in hospital, though there is a hospital radio behind his bed.)

He's better. He will be getting better. Hopefully, he will be out of the hospital for Christmas, though that only leaves the problem open for now about where my parents are going to go, for how long, and how. (My mum planned to contact the university to ask about a flat with disabled access, available on a short let, as for a visiting scholar: which would be perfect if possible. If she does. Um.)

http://www.thewaythefutureblogs.com/2009/12/astounding-campbell-years-part-2/

http://www.thewaythefutureblogs.com/?p=1667

 
As the 1940s mutated into the ’50s things changed.
All through World War II, and for some time after, Astounding had been king of the hill — eagerly read not just in America but also in England, where a young Arthur Clarke was getting around to mailing in his first story, “Rescue Party,” and in Germany, [...]

There have been a lot of issues with notifications with several email providers for the past 2 weeks. Seems that a spammer has been using insanejournal.com as a landing page for their spam. This is causing some email providers to either delay or completely block mail from insanejournal.com.

There isn't anything we can do about this besides continue to be vigilant in suspending these accounts. If you own an account that gets suspended with no notification it is because your account was mistakenly identified as a spam account. Due to the shear volume of accounts being suspended we cannot review each individual account so some mistakes may be made.

Please understand we have been and will continue to do anything we can to stop this spam and therefore restore the ability to send email to a number of providers.

Thank you to deirdre_c, marciaelena, catdancerz and dotfic for the lovely snowflakes in my userinfo! ♥♥♥♥♥

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LJ, let my comments go!

*shakes tiny ineffectual fist*

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Giants beat the Cowboys! That always makes for a great Sunday. And they swept them this year, so I think that means they have the upper hand should it come down to a tiebreaker.

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After brunch, I went to Supercuts and while she was cutting my hair, the hairdresser quizzed me on 19th c. novels like Wuthering Heights and Pride and Prejudice (well, technically movies adapted from 19th c. novels). I thought she said she'd read Jane Eyre, so I kind of spoiled it for her (crazy wife in the attic omg!) but she didn't seem to care. She said she was going to bump it up on her Netflix list, 'cause she likes the creepy ones.

Generally, I hate having to chat while having my hair done, but this conversation was amusing and also about something I am familiar with, which is not usually the case. Also, she washed my hair with this lavender and mint shampoo that I really liked so I ended up buying it. Obviously, the way to upsell me is with conversation about books and things that smell nice.

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I have a whopping 71 words on my yuletide story. Wah! Also, I am trying to figure out how I am going to find a beta who knows the source, because I'd like someone who is at least familiar with it to read the thing over when I finally finish it.

When that's done, I can focus on Broken Toys, among other things. I think I know what I'm writing for that, but writing it in my current unable to write state should be interesting.

Stupid writing. Why so hard?

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Established relationship amnesia slashfic where the amnesiac just gets told that he's sleeping with this other guy he doesn't remember.

I mean, I feel like I must have read at least one story like that once, but it seems as if all of the amnesiafic I read has people deciding, for reasons that don't actually make any sense, that hiding a romantic relationship is appropriate.

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Two thumbs up for both the flourless chocolate cake, which tastes like a really intense fudge brownie, and the Sicilian cheesecake, which is just yummy, with a hint of orange flavor (I wonder if adding almond extract would work. hmm...).

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Here is some music I uploaded. The theme was "songs to wake up to" and I did two small sets:

for when you need to ease into the day with some softness:

For No One - Azure Ray
Raining in Athens - Azure Ray
The Shape I Found You In - Girlyman
You Will Rise - Tom McRae
Anna Begins - Counting Crows

for when you need to get the adrenaline going:

Every You Every Me - Placebo
Back in Black - AC/DC
Wherever I May Roam - Metallica
One Girl Revolution (Battle Mix) - Superchick
Slow Down Gandhi - Sage Francis

I uploaded this for angelgazing, because it is THE Remus Lupin theme song (pre-Azkaban, anyway) in my head:
There Is a Boy Who Never Goes Out - the Lucksmiths

And here are some songs I was thinking should be SPN vids:
Rise Up in the Dirt - Voxtrot
Sam and Dean, saving people! hunting things! the family business!

Red Shoes (The Angels Wanna Wear My) - Elvis Costello
Sam and Dean v. angels

(What's So Funny 'Bout) Peace, Love and Understanding - Elvis Costello
Down In It - Nine Inch Nails
Terrible Lie - Nine Inch Nails
Sam wondering how things got all fucked up, and if it's even possible to fix them.

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Now I have to go get ready to meet fleurdeleo for brunch. And then another day of not-writing my yuletide story! Woo!

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( The Rules )

1. For my dad's broken bone to heal cleanly and without complications.
2. Anything on my Amazon wish-list
3. A holiday somewhere outside Edinburgh.
4. A big glass goblet candle-holder, the sort that can hold a 30-hour candle
5. For my parents to see that the only workable solution to their current situation is for both of them to take a short let on a nice furnished ground-floor flat with a walk-in shower and let other people clear the guddle out of their duplex four-flights-up flat so that it can be sold and they can move properly.
6. 30-hour scented candles in cinnamon, vanilla, chocolate, coffee, and cardamom. (I have never seen a cardamom-scented candle.)
7. For my parents to admit that they see (5) and actually follow through.
8. Starbucks Chocolate Covered Graham Crackers
9. Time to write.
10. A Swiss Army knife

I met my mum for lunch, we had delicious vegan soup and talked in a fraught way about their home and then she went off to the hospital to see my dad while I went shopping. Afterwards I went to see my dad and he was very tired and I got the 8 back to have mulled fruit wine and other interesting fruit wines in good company. I got home late, tired, drunk, and slept irregularly till noon. It's sunny. I suppose going out would be a good idea, now I've had breakfast. And coffee.

Thank you for the snowflake cookie, O anonymous benefactor! ♥ It really perked me up.

Today was the bi-annual semiannual twice-yearly scrubbing of the tub. Oy. Scrubbing the tub is my least favorite chore ever. I will say that Soft Scrub with bleach is amazing - it totally got out a stain I thought would never come out. So now I have a clean tub, with a new bathmat and shower curtain, and the rest of the bathroom is clean as well. Lovely.

Then I ran out to buy a couple of things I needed for today's bake-fest, and now the flourless chocolate cake is in the oven, and I am resting up before I start on the Sicilian cheesecake.

We're having this potluck luncheon thingy at work this week, and I said I'd bring something dessert-ish, but I didn't want to bring something I hadn't tested, and my mother couldn't find her Italian cheesecake recipe, so I am taste testing. Well, I will be giving half of each cake to fleurdeleo when I see her tomorrow (and a bag of frozen blueberry boy bait cupcakes, as well), because too much is too much. And then when I've decided which I like better, I will make it later in the week to bring to work.

The flourless chocolate cake was pretty easy, though I was worried I was going to overcook the chocolate because the butter wasn't melting quickly enough (I did it in a makeshift double-boiler - i.e., smaller pot floating on top of larger pot). And I had an unfortunate experience with having to fish out a bit of eggshell (so really, that should be an unfortunate eggsperience. I'm sorry! I can't help it! Bad puns just happen to me!) from the batter, but overall, it was pretty easy.

It's got about twenty-five minutes to go and it smells divine. If it tastes as good as it smells, I think I know what I'm giving my sister and b-i-l for Christmas. (I am thinking homemade baked goods for all the adults, since I've been doing all this baking. That's good, right? It's fairly cheap, compared to what I normally spend, I enjoy doing it, and it tastes good. I just... I don't know how it will be received.)

Both recipes call for a springform pan, which I did not own, so last night on the way home I stopped off at K-Mart on Astor Place, and got one (and also a bundt pan and a tube pan, and the new shower curtain and new bathmat, plus a new toothbrush holder - it has a pretty purple flower on it, and I liked it, even though my bathroom is all green), and man, let me tell you, that is one depressing department store. It reminded me a little of the ABC on Liberty Avenue back in City Line or the TSS on Metropolitan Avenue (man, that was a long time ago). Okay, maybe with slightly higher quality goods, but not by much. I don't know. Something about it was just depressing.

So I've cleaned, shopped and baked, and talked to my parents on the phone. I ... I suppose I should write something now. I haven't in days. I mean, I have an opening sentence for yuletide, and I like my idea, but I just feel completely useless as a writer right now. I can't seem to write the kinds of stories I keep having ideas for (i.e., stories with casefile-y or caper-y plots) and it just makes me want to give up the whole enterprise. Meh.

At least with baking I get the satisfaction of tasty baked goods at the end of the process. Right now, writing isn't providing much of that.

I should have a baking icon. Hmm...

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One Shots
[x] Anonymous: Bound and Chained (To You) [PG]
[x] Anonymous: Due Recompense [NC-17] Chan
[x] Anonymous: His Gift of Words [R]
[x] Anonymous: Northern Exposure [NC-17]
[x] Anonymous: Of Hope Restored [NC-17]
[x] Anonymous: What Price Help [NC-17] Chan
[x] alisanne: Inextricably Bound [NC-17]
[x] countesszero: Sunshine [PG]
[x] fancypantsdylan: Just Desserts [NC-17]
[x] shadowess: Warm [NC-17] Chan
[x] swtalmnd: Thicker Than Water [NC-17] Chan

Works In Progress
[x] starcrossdkayla: Nights of Gethsemane updated with Chapter 56 [NC-17]

Drabbles And Ficlets
[x] alisanne: A James By Any Other Name [G]
[x] alisanne: A Snog and a Cuddle [PG]
[x] alisanne: Love's Sharp Claws [PG]
[x] alisanne: Patronus Interruptus [PG]
[x] alisanne: Sexy Kinks for Sexy WIzards - Day 1 - Candles [R]
[x] alisanne: Sexy Kinks for Sexy WIzards - Day 2 - Plum Pudding [NC-17]
[x] alisanne: When He is Mine [G] SS/HP, SS/other
[x] calanor: Untitled for the moment [R]
[x] calanor: Untitled for the moment [R]
[x] calanor: Untitled for the moment [R]
[x] calanor: Untitled for the moment [R]
[x] celadineb: Wait [Adult]
[x] centaury_squill: Christmas Candles [G]
[x] centaury_squill: Christmas Pudding [G]
[x] centaury_squill: Firelight [G]
[x] centaury_squill: Red Ribbons [PG]
[x] fancypantsdylan: Favourite Thing [NC-17]
[x] fancypantsdylan: Harry [PG-13]
[x] fancypantsdylan: Nude Modelling [PG-13]
[x] fancypantsdylan: Threesomes [NC-17] SS/HP/DM
[x] fancypantsdylan: Wizard Porn [R]
[x] joanwilder: The Invitation [PG]
[x] lemondropseven: Harry Potter, A Fairy Tale [G]
[x] lemondropseven: Of Course [G]
[x] lemondropseven: Unremarkable [G]
[x] lilyseyes: Shaken [R] Chan. Another in the Erastes series
[x] littleblackbow: "Eulogy by the fire" [G]
[x] littleblackbow: "Who's that for?" [G]
[x] shadowess: Beginning [G]
[x] shadowess: Breathless [NC-17]
[x] shadowess: Detention [PG-13] Chan
[x] shadowess: Morpheus [R]
[x] shadowess: Orderly [R]
[x] shadowess: Perfect [R]
[x] shadowess: Pretty [R]
[x] sweetmelodykiss: Always [PG]
[x] sweetmelodykiss: Beauty Incarnate [R]
[x] synn: Of Snitches and Shadows [G] SS/HP, HP/GW
[x] synn: Unasked [G/PG] SS/BW, SS/HP
[x] torina_archelda: Firelight [PG]
[x] torina_archelda: Firsts [G]
[x] torina_archelda: Green [G]
[x] torina_archelda: Perfect [PG]
[x] torino10154: Good Thing Going [PG] SS/HP/DM
[x] unbroken_halo: The Most Wonderful Time of Year [R]

Art And Icons
[x] Anonymous: A Rock and a Hard Place [R/NWS]
[x] Anonymous: Protective Custody [PG]
[x] Anonymous: The Boy Who was Enthralled [R/NC-17 - NSFW]
[x] bielol: Make Torina Happy art [Not rated - WS]
[x] lemondropseven: A Very Snarry Holiday [G]
[x] lemondropseven: By the Fire [G]
[x] venturous: We've Come to the Edge [G]

Miscellaneous
[x] Walking the Plank: Updates for the month of November
[x] hds_beltane: 4th Annual HDS Beltane Gift Exchange Signups run from Dec 1 to Dec 31 or until they have 31 writers, whichever comes first.
[x] snarry100: Challenge 191 - Favourites
[x] snarry_holidays: Needs proofreaders
[x] snarry_holidays: Started posting this week!
[x] snarry_swap: Reminds authors that assignments are due soon

This Newsletter
[x] Send your Snape/Harry news to sshp.prophet@gmail.com!

I won't be giving Motorola any of my money anytime soon. Sexist advertising pisses me off. Pheh. Need to cleanse my brain a bit after that...

By way of swanswan, footage from myriad BBC costume dramas set to 'It's Raining Men.' (Clearly, I am not watching enough BBC costume dramas.)

I will probably need this when I am home again for Christmas... Lifehacker's How To Fix Your Relatives' Terrible Computer. Also, wintery desktop backgrounds.

Bleh, winter. In hotter news...

asdf;lkjasd;flkj;alskdfj j_crew_guy why oh why do you share these tantalizing links? If you’re a fan of Christian and Oliver, Deniz and Roman, Dante’s Cove, Queer as Folk, One Life to Live, Verbotene Liebe, Alles Was Zählt, GREEK, and Gute Zeiten, Schlechte Zeiten... http://gaysofourlives.org/ March 26-28th 2010 in New York.

*bouncebouncehappybounce* The Lair - The Complete 3rd Season on DVD this coming March 23rd

(And yes, I am severely behind on my drunkened liveblogging of this season's eps. I will catch up, I swear. Because The Lair is made of awesome silliness with a side of hot steam and a massive helping of CHEEZE.



ALSO? ALSO ALSO ALSO???? OMG TEASER TRAILER. BUCK ROGERS IN THE 25TH CENTURY TEASER TRAILER.



Yes, this official online series thing is really happening: http://buckrogersbegins.com/

If the above link or embed on youtube doesn't work, here's an alternate link to the teaser trailer on scifiupdates.com.

(And no, prior to this new web series, I was not terribly much a Buck Rogers fan. But now I am, and it's all Bobby Quinn Rice's fault. Thppppt!)

Further details and geekyblogs' reactions to the trailer:
http://trekmovie.com/2009/11/30/new-teaser-for-cawleys-buck-rogers-web-series/
http://scifiwire.com/2009/12/teaser-trailer-for-new-bu.php
http://gilgerard.tripod.com/ (scroll down to September on Gil's blog...)
http://www.toplessrobot.com/2009/12/so_theres_a_buck_rogers_web_series_or_something.php
YouTube playlist of the DragonCon Buck Rogers panel (includes spoilers!)...

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So it was a year ago today that I was laid off from Big Evol MegaCorp. I kind of can't believe it. I mean, a year. 12 months. 365 days. It's kind of boggling. I look back on it and I'm like, wow, what did I even do for those twelve weeks? If only I'd known things would work out pretty quickly, I would have enjoyed the time off a lot more, I tell you what.

I know I was lucky - I am lucky. One of the VPs I worked for at BEMC is still out of work. It helps that I wasn't tied to the financial industry, and that I actively wanted to get back into the non-profit sector. And that I'm kind of an awesome assistant.

I opened this post at about 1 pm this afternoon at work and never figured out what exactly I wanted to say. That I'm grateful, I suppose, that I was only out of work for three months, that I have a family who could have taken me in if the need arose, that I got a decent severance package that also continued my insurance for those twelve weeks (and would have paid half of it for another twelve if I'd needed to go on COBRA) that I found a job so quickly in a bad economy at a place where I don't feel like I'm selling a little bit of my soul every time it's mentioned on the news. (Er, not that the place I work now is ever mentioned on the news, but you know what I mean.)

Anyway, I never did cry about it, possibly because I was afraid if I started, I would never stop, but it still hits me at odd moments, and it's made me even more anxious than I was before (which is really saying something, because I am like a ball of anxiety slathered in neuroses) about not screwing up at work, about how close I am - how close most of us are - to one or two bad breaks leading to a whole lot of badness, and how there's very little in the way of a safety net for anyone (who doesn't work for Goldman Sachs) anymore.

What I did cry about today - and oh man, did I ever - was this week's Friday Night Lights. How is this show so good? HOW? ( spoilers )

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I watched this week's Bones earlier, and wow, really unpleasant movie-whoring. Bleh.

And then there was the White Collar fall finale. ( spoilers )

I can't wait for hiatus to be over. I am also kind of geeked by the Burn Notice commercials. And how AWESOME is that Psych commercial? SO AWESOME OMG! GUS & SHAWN! HALL & OATES! *hearts*

TV is so very, very good to me. *happy sigh*

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Did you see where I said "spoilers" above?

Spoilers (in comments)

( I'll say it again...spoilers )

A quick update of my multi-fandom recs page (14 HP stories, 1 Star Trek-Reboot, 1 True Blood, 1 White Collar) can be found here at 'Recs Recs Recs: a work-in-progress'

I've made thirty or so random URL changes, as I always do (this time concentrating on alternate links for stories that had been hosted on geocities), but if you see a broken link and know where that fic has been re-housed, please let me know!

(Note: The next recs updates will be the massive holiday fest ones, which I won't be posting until after the author reveals.)

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